I was thinking to myself instead of voicing my opinion on socially-immersed topics, why don't I just talk about what I want to do with myself, and how I want to help others. So thats what I'm going to do.
As you all know when I write blog posts, I need a theme song. So, I have on Jay-Z's Blueprint 2: The Gift and The Curse Disc 1, A Dream. Jay speaks to me in a way that some emcees do not. He uses his life experiences, dumbs it down somewhat, and then delivers it with a beat and rhymes. His flow goes with the melody of his songs and it's as if he's talking to you face to face. In the song, Hov talks about how in his dream he talked to the Notorious B.I.G., and Biggie inspired him to keep on pushing himself to become the greatest rapper he can become. In a way, Jay-Z, along with my English professor, Ran Walker, inspired me to create this post. I'm not going to put my blog post in words that rhyme, I'm just going to say what's on my mind about what I want to do and how I can try an become it. Hopefully, through this post I can inspire others to write about their dreams.
*song starts*
My DREAM. What is my dream? My dream is to help others. It's not like Dr. King's, but I would love to help people to get to the mountaintop. I always wanted to own my own business. Yeah, that's it. Its coming into focus now. *scrolling marquee* "Reinvention Enterprises." A business specializing in computer and applied sciences. How did this come about? I always had this childhood DREAM of being Bruce Wayne/Batman. All you really had to do was to have money and be inspired to help others in need. So, I was going to build "bat-rangs" and gadgets for myself to help others. But, as I got older, it evolved. I wanted to make a computer operating system, team up with Yahoo! or Google, and put Bill Gates and Microsoft out of business. Now, even though I love computers, I can't seem to find the love for figuring out how to program computer software. So, I went from that to wanting to be an advertising executive. I wanted to market certain products to the mainstream culture. I also thought about different divisions that I would add to my company. I wanted to add a sports management firm, and a music division, which I would call Charismatic Creations.
But as gotten older, I've strayed away from those ambitions somewhat. An I'm not sure what I want to do. I've gone from a business major to a prospective English major. I'm not even sure if I want to do that. English plays a major part in everything we do in a society, so why not? I guess I'm somewhat apprehensive because of the work I have to put in. But HARD WORK means everything. An if I don't work hard, then the benefits will NEVER come. So as of now, I have no clue. But I have dreams about the future all the time. God only knows how I will get to that certain point in my life.
After I make money in whatever I do, I NEVER want my parents to worry about a thing in their lives. I want them to know that everything is taken care of. I want them to look at each other and be able to say, "Damn, our son has done very well. We've taught him well. He's taking good care of us and himself. He's inspired every one he has encountered, in some way, shape or form." I'm saying this because I'm tired of my father making just enough money to be broke. I'm tired of him working two and three jobs. I want him to fulfill his aspirations, even at 45 years old. (You still got time, Old Man) I'm tired of him lying to me saying everything is okay, when its not. I can look at his aging face, his tired body, his reddened eyes, his stressed and aggressive demeanor and tell that everything IS NOT OKAY. Just thinking about it now is giving me tears. One day I'm going to tell him that everything is ALL GOOD. Don't worry about a damn thing. I want to be able to tell my mother, stop stressing about your job. You will be okay. She's struggled and sacrificed a lot for me to be in the position I'm in. Salary decreasing every year, but she still gives me money for recreational purposes. Her sacrificial losses = her moral gain and my materialistic needs. I don't want EITHER of my parents to work until they're 65 ... I WANT to retire my parents, so they can live on an island somewhere an not ever have to worry about trying to be financially stable. I have the best mother and father a son can have. I am truly grateful for both of them. And I hope an pray that I can fulfill my duties as a loving and caring son.
My dream will not be deferred. Hopefully it won't "dry up like, a raisin in the sun" - Langston Hughes. Maybe one day it will flourish. Maybe I, along with a couple of people I know, can say that we fulfilled what we wanted to do in life. I want to go to Heaven and say, "I actually did everything I wanted to do in life. Thank you God for giving me all of these blessings."
Well, thats everything on my mind. I've talked to you all about my dreams and what I eventually want to do with my life. My parents don't even know what I think of them an their lives, but they'll find out how I felt by reading this. Hopefully I inspired others to create blog posts or Facebook notes. Feel free to comment. (If I know you please, leave your name instead of posting anonymous) I'm about to get ready for Humanities class. Holla @ y'all PEACE!!!!
